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Dear fellow bloggers,

whomever you are and wherever your from i want your opinion or better yet, tell me who your favorite actor, actresses, model, etc is. one choice please….. i need your feedback asap possibly by tonite because i’m starting this oil painting workshop and i’m dazed and confused on whose protrait i want to draw. i have a person in mind but i want to see what you fellow bloggers have. i prefer you make it a female because i can draw their protraits more realisticly and make them look surreal rather than males. however i’m always up for a challenge, so if u give me a male actor i will think about it, but please comment. i need your comments this one time. just this once. thank you

neeways away from that and to this, today was a great beautiful amazing and what more characteristics can i add, let’s just say that staying up till 4 am in the morning studying for chemsitry paid off cause i got a …..% and that makes me so proud teacher even used it as theee @n$w

well i am so excited about the oil painting workshop finally i can enhance my artisitic abilities which i believe i possess this is but my opinion. ooh i’m getting the jitters and can’t wait till wednesday when it begins and will be on every wednesday. let’s just say that wednesday’s are going to be my forte of the week (can i even use that in this sentence) well i’m excited so who cares about my mistakes.

i want to make my blog artistic and pleasing to the eyes, i want to make a different template i guess i better ask jacqui to help me and also mee need to create a nice picture to use with my nickname. oooooh how wonderful this week has turned out to be, i am hoping this weekend i will again go to the beach, i fell in love with it and believe that nothing can tear me apart from it.

“Won’t You Come Again ?….”

Different situations that you have spurred (you…who? i dont even know…):-

“You felt no pain, anguish or grief as you looked at what you done with me. You crushed me with your presence, injured me with your heart, allowed yourself to get the better of me.”

“No not really, i was just making you sense the dreams you know will bring lies to yourself, open your eyes girl, look at the downside and you’ll understand what i’m trying to tell you.”

“Forget what i said, love dosen’t exist, at least not in that heart of yours, you want nothing for me, just all for you i guess i have now seen through that facade you created. Could you do me a favor, thats the least you can do, walk away from me. Leave my sight. I never really wanted to fully comprehend my emotions, they were all in a blur, you outsmarted me this time. But i guess, hope and need there not be a next time.”

“Nothing will make you feel heartless unless you accomplish what you wanted and longed to have. Understand the unthinkable, realize the untrue, forget the lies, and deminish those fears, live life tonight and forget about tomorrow. Die today instead of long for tomorrow.”

“You and I, why are they the most used up words, never in the right context we all long to hear. You never know.., You and I will never work..Your just not right, forget it and move on…you and i undefined,…

“Why do roses die, why do people cry, why do you listen when theirs nothing to hear, why do you leave when i sense you near, why do people lie when they know they bring deceit to those who care not for them, not for anyone but themselves.????”

What am i saying here, even i dont know, just the words seemed to keep themselves flowing and taking a soul of their own. Well, i ended up not going to school :D, i wanted to go to this play but i got ill, and oh well guess it was not meant to be. Nothin else new except i had the most dosage of sleep anyone can get, i slept far too long, which was not a great feeling when you awake, but at least it helped me feel better and i dont know, made me drift off to somewhere…. well enough of this and that. i better go to bed, its like omg 2 30 and i have to wake up early, oh well. :p :yawn:

it’s official that today’s start of the day was like yesterday, however it’s just the entire household overslept, no alarm clock woke me up, maybe i forgot to switch it on, but such a great experience. i enjoyed the day and smiled through all the troubles i faced. want to know what? guess you dont but i will tell you,
(a) nobody woke me for school, but i woke the others just before we could end up late. but i swear i felt so refreshed and happy with what happened
(b) so i take me time as usual getting dressed,eating breakfast brush,shower, but guess what i almost put the shampoo i use for my hair on my toothbrush instead of toothpaste. i smiled like hell thank god i noticed before it was too late and i would have made the saying true, “wash your mouth with soap”in arabic i duno what i’m saying but bare with me
(c) pops drives us to school, i have a test first thing in chemistry, but i feel composed, definitely happy and smiling even when we can be late. i tell him to take his time, saying its such a beautiful morning nothing can ruin it.
(d) i almost twisted my ankle when i got out of the car to go to school, hint :crossing the street but hahah i laughed like hell to what would’ve and could’ve happened if …
(e) everything went well at school, i was awake and understood everything why cause i was well rested and slept like a baby. then came home and enjoyed a nice nap.
(f) before i could however have my great nap to again further allow me rest and relaxation for a bit, i discovered, that i somehow i got sick, (never knew can happen within a day):P but i did and still am, i have a cough, sniffles, my throat is sore as hell, and suffering from a stomach ache. but still
before i slept i said “such a beautiful and NOTHING will ruin it” not even being sick.
(g) all that’s left to do know is study for my test tomorrow and memorize this thing for another class. come to think of it i duno maybe if i dont feel well in the morning, i’ll ask parents if i can stay home. but i niether feel the pressure to study for this test cause its inshallah going to be simple.
(h) so how was your day compared to the one i suffered today? but again i am smiling and enjoying while it last because these days come once in every few weeks, months, etc, enjoy my post and inshallah i have no grammar mistakes to those who hate seeing mistakes.
(i) i love this day, this hour, this life, and just everything and i luv LuLu baby sis who without her life will never be the same and this precious, n i dont know how i would survive.

cough….cough….sniffle….sniffle. come to think of it i should eat a strepcille or however its spelled for the sore throat and and and i’m repeating words. heheh. but enjoying the day and inshallah i see a bright everlasting great day tomorrow. i hope i feel better though cause i’m going to a play which i hope i feel up to going for …

ps. any sis’s reading this should think of (a)keeping a distance so i dont get you sick (b) and i duno why am i always like the first to get a cold in this household and at times and eventually spreads it to everyone heheheh oh well, i’m always to blame huh ? thats just the essence of life and being the middle child. 😛

“See what you go through, with bleeding eyes. Got what you came for when hate is blind. You told me not to lie”-nothingface

first of all my day has started off wrong and most likely will end that way.

1. went through this day with only one hour of sleep. then had to go
to skool

2. felt sleepy all day, through all the classes but was awake to
listen to the crap

3. had apparantely 3 tests i only knew 2 but mysteriously the third
was cancelled

4. test one hamadallah easy but TRICKERY TREAT all i have to say

5. test two, after it i had a writers cramp who wouldn’t after
writing an essay for 1 hr 30min

6. comes lunch and break at skool, didnt have time to even compose
myself for the hell to come

7. algebra class, i couldnt get it, couldnt follow through with just
one hour of sleep couldnt would you have made it? at least i was
awake but didnt get anything coming out of the teachers mouth

8. comes lunch time in school, just found out that we have homework
and a test in this class, me forgot that notebook so how do
homework, must ask for book. eventually does it

9. comes the next class, memorization, ok, i knew this was going to
happen, i memorize and get it done, finally one more class to go

10. class with the mysterious test we supposedly have then teacher
cancels it the nevre of her. but thank god cause i didnt know we
had one. oh well even the homework i did in break she didnt
check, useless ooooof utterly pissed i am

11.on the way home, i thought we were going to run over a cat so i
instinctively put me hands on my eyes but that was a scare my
sister driving laughed at me, she was no where near that stupid
cat. ooooof what more can go wrong. still not done ranting here

12. well i decide to sleep to compose myself and probably awake on
the right side of the bed figuratively speaking. didnt happen
unfortuanately. excuse my spelling and grammar to lazy to correct
it.

13. i have to do a lab, almost maybe done but ooooh the hell im
suffering

14. i have 2 tests tomorrow so i need to study.

15. i hope this cycle doesnt repeat itself tomorrrow

16. so how was your day compared to mine.

17. I MISS THE WEEKEND

P.S school today all my classes were the chore ones, why couldnt they have been my electives i would not have cared and ranted like this. oooooooooooffff

but all in all, without day’s like these, wouldn’t life be boring, but i thank god and am smiling, because i can make it. well then, gotta go back to studies and inshallah the weekend i can say something far from the subject of schoool.

ONLY thing letting me survive this day is SHEWANTSREVENGE songs and their lyrics which are the antidote to me pain. :O

So you turned your back when you saw me again, because of my response … Ofcourse i want nothing to do with you honey, have you seen yourself lately. Take a minute and look into the mirror, not to check yourself out but to ascertain the image you inflicted in my heart. Your vain, superficial, only up for what’s going to do grand things for you. Walk away because you stole my heart, it’s going to end up bruised from your undying lies.

You see the drive i took down that lane, cleared my thoughts for but a few moments. Little did i know that you will be the death of me, by far you dont see. So i said my thoughts were clear, but my eyes were all glistening with tears softly cascading down my cheeks. Those tears were cries of loathe towards you and you see, i was all the while thinking about you. But i never loathed you, all i had in me was love and undefinable passion. But you wanted to destroy me before i got any closer, am i right?

But i never saw you coming, i never saw your eyes, i never listened to your scream as you watched me die. So was it me who was killed in this car crash or was it you. You’ve clouded up my thoughts and made me delusional. Of all the scenerios that could have been, we could have had it all, love, hope and dreams together as one, but you were written to be the death of me.

From my grave, i am cursing you and at the same time wishing i could tell you that i love you, cause i guess i never had the chance to. You never gave me a moment to speak, you were always on a subject far away from then notion of my being. So i send now to you a whisper of saying “someone falls to pieces sleeping all alone, someone kills the pain, spininig in the silence, finally drifts away.”

So i guess i’ve gotten what i always to see you in pain, at least now you can understand the pain i endured from your hands. This was never meant to be, never actually happened, you never noticed me, so how can you be the death of me. But to set everything straight, nothing lasts for ever, not even your vainty and selfishness. You got the picture haven’t you, that people only find pain in your pleasures. … when were you ever going to change that when you saw my demise infront of your eyes. i guess i might have be the pill to all your lies, i might have caused some fixation that will change your life.

But why could’nt i live to see you this way, i guess what i’m trying to say is i don’t want to see you in this state of mind and , “when you look back now was it special? Or was it nothing but anecdote that you can tell now and then, i delude myself if i was worth it, even though from the begining i could see exactly how it would end…” and now your living the joyful life, gotten married and got kids, but why is it that everynight you get a nightmare of ….., i guess thats the message i’m sending to you, even though you left me, or i left you, you’ll never get rid of me quite easily. cause i sitll couldn’t stop myself from falling in love.

I hope my story was intruging and i duno got you thinking, PS. Ii love my “JACKIE” till love tears us apart. kiddin but i love her and all of you probably have the same love for her, but mine will always be unconditional.and hah of the same blood 😛 … beat that. the quotation marks were from 2 songs those were not my words, but the rest are all dodo’s word, a nickname i was given by someone out there who never concentrates for any of me posts. . 😛

another creation from the hands of me…. nothing is new except their are too many deadlines i have to do so many things for monday and time is of the essence as they say. so i guess i better stop typing and start doing something more productive. i miss prison break their arent any new eposides and i cant wait to see what happens. other than that, nothing at all has changed except everything and then again isnt change something to look forward too? maybe not. 😛 till then and happy national day to the beloved kuwait ;p

would you like to live in black and white or colors…. weird quesiton aye, but really think about it i always wanted to live in the black and white days realisticily speaking duh their was color back then but no color cameras get my drift. what scheme of colors would you like to live in? i am all black and white if it was up to me i would color everything like bedroom, bathroom, kitchen, dining room, entire house in a sihloutee of black and white. but contrast with shades of gray here and there and spark a bit of red to liven up the place. what would you want ?…

welli the day was quite marvelous, my pops and lil lil sister of 4 years old and i went to the beach today, had an adventure my sis cuz its her first time going to the beach. i am guessing she will not forget today. we put our toes in the freezing cold water, splashed and laughed and threw rocks into the ocean. it was beautiful but too crowded. many people apparently planned to go to the beach today of all days. it was not secluded as it was last time maybe because this time i went at 12 and last week i went their at 8. i prefer to rise early and watch the shore peacefully without the disdain and noise of the peeps around the place, grilling food and making the beach smell like smoke. but all ends well in the end. we had a blast, but the other sis’s felt the need to sleep than to wake up and walk along the beach. oh well, its a beautiful day i hope nothing spoils it.

well, this the the second post i did today but unfortunately the first one was deleted when my pc again mysteriously restarted. i guess you can call this pc a bird flu infected pc. its got a virus most likely and has a mind of its own whenever it cares to restart it does. well i made another pic in paint but i doubt it looks great, however the emotion i wanted to inflict isnt well shown, i guess i should use the pencil pad thing rather than the mouse which is hard to maintain in stokes. or should i just stick with pencils and paper. what do you think?…:P by the way the words arent mine at all in the pic their part of a songs lyrics, didnt want to take credit for those beautiful words, the song is also beautiful.

i did this drawing on paint, you know the paint we all used to goof around with when we were small. how do you like it is it something or just nothing at all. and i duno do you think you will appreicate it if i do more of these because i love to do them. i think this makes me unique im not a photoshop girl or the all tech-freak i just enjoy to draw whether on paper or on the computer. does this show talent or just simple boredom. comments are appreicated. ;P

listen to this song and tell me what you think of it, click on tear you apart, listen to it and then to broken promises. do any of you think they rock or …? i think they rock and love them.
www.myspace.com/shewantsrevenge

neeways away from that and back to this, nothin much is new except well everything has been going wrong and when that happens, it seems that you get a feeling of heart burn in your heart well thats what i get with all this destruction in this blah blah. i guess no one wants to hear of that. well finally tonite is just the start of the begining of relaxation from school but i think that wont last long since once we get back i have 2 tests. haha isnt that something to look forward to.

well i guess i have lost my touch in writing because i seem to be in the dark room, nothin i can think of to write about. how sad. oh well. i guess i have nothing to say. what is your opinion of someone you come across who just simply listens to what you have to say rather than blab like hell to you instead of simply listen and observe? is that something bad or is it just rare in people? i dont know, i find it rare and extinct. i would rather be the person listening than the one talking but if i have something to say i will not wait for your cue, i will blurt it out and say it straightforward without going this way or that way.

i guess i should go to sleep, since i am quite tired from this hectic week of i duno too much. i guess this is what i have to say from this day i would rather be engrossed in a novel rather than wonder and think about that and this and what if and whys etc. wouldnt you care to lose yourself in a novel than in the confines of your mind. haha that came out quite nicely. well i would love anyones feedback. 😛

I HATE SOMEONE ITS AS SIMPLE AS THAT. u know who you r or should i elaborate. 🙁

Tears are stinging these eyes
Its because of you i dread your lies
I face them every single day
We pass each other down the hallway
But have we really passed each other
Or is it you who has passed me
Did you have no care to stop and
Simply say something to me
These dreams i saw within your eyes
Now have become yet another reason for my cries
Walk away is what i have to do
I must never allow myself to get to you
Maybe this was written for us
Goodbye forgotten at least i tried
But i still want to tear you apart.
-dandoona 🙂

nice poem or is it so cliche, i wrote it and what are your opinions or never mind….neeways i guess i should start studying for that test i have tomorrow i’m guessing that from here till next week everyday will be hectic and sleepless. its just sad how i dont have comments on the previous better posts i have written, i guess that the way its going to be. the ugly, boring ones are commented on and the others are simply left alone. “you leave me devasted everytime”.

“Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak, And you leave to have a c#g$r%t@e, knees get weak. An escape is just a nod and a casual wave, Obessed about it, heavy for the next two days. Its only just a crush, it’ll go away. Its just like the others it’ll go away. Or maybe this is danger and you just dont know. You pray it all away but it continues to grow.”-tear you apart.

i appreicate the help i am getting from a fellow blogger but i believe they think me i duno faint hearted as i recall i heard. neeways i again thank them for their help but i think it didnt go to waste since the time settings have been fixed. well to other news, nothing is new only a load of school work to do how many more months till school ends. oh well one more year and finally i will end this stress that i seem to elevate everytime i have so many things to do. i think i must work on being less stressed and simply enjoy every step i take.

do any of you here watch prison break, if you dont i suggest you start to because it is just amazing. i am only at eposide 7 while their are actually 13 that have been released. oh well 6 more to watch and then i will be up to date.

this day has not started off well and i believe its going to end on bad terms as it began. its like when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed, this expression we all use or some of us do when we arent ourselves. but i guess we all have those days and i hope tomorrow will be a better day than today.

some people always leave me speechless at which point i have to bit my tongue not to reply but i most certainly have a reply, i just wish to keep it unknown so i dont hurt people with those words. i guess thats jsut the way life goes, in reality no one can really speak their mind or else chaos will take over our world. so why do we have to oppress some of our thoughts just to better suit other peoples hearts?…. blah blah blah.

i had this day all planned out how i will like spend my free time studying for my algebra test thats on tuesday since i have got another test just after it so why not use my time wisely. well that idea is out of my system. i havent opened the book yet and i have no will to go on so i am guessing all im going to do today is watch the eposides of prison break and have i mentioned how hott the guy is.. my opinion.;P.

i hate to wake up in the morning when i only have just 2 hours of sleep. i was bribing my sister to give me 30 more minutes and blah blah so she can get lost and let me rest and continue that dream for just a bit. when i dont get enough sleep i tend to be cranky and some people are energtic after they sleep but i get cranky for only 30 minutes after i wake up so no one should even utter a thing to me because i will say something i would regret in but a few minutes and then this and that and oh im sorry i didnt mean to say this…oh whatever but tonite im planning on enjoying about 8 hours of sleep. but i dont feel so sleepy today, bummer huh. when you want to sleep you cant because of all the work thats piled up but when you carefree you no longer feel dizzy and sleepy.

well i amazed the class with my presentation of the artwork i created at first they thought it was just a mixtures of colors and this and that but when i showed them up close and personal what i did they were stunend. i took this mobile box and painted it, the size was great small and easy to work with. i used acrylic paint and no brush but my hands to cover the box with images of blazing fire, people burning. but the people are difficult to see if only people concentrate it would be seen. i formed faces and people out of the paint giving the people a glimpse of the idea within the poem. huh i told you i would be creative up to the limit but i could have done much better but what to expect when you do projects last minute. bad girl. thats what i have to say i had to blow dry my project in order for the paint to dry and not smudge. oh well every mistake is but a lesson to improve ourselves.

i want to liven up my blog cuz my sisters blog rock and mine just sucks or is rather plain. but then again simple might be the way to go but i want to create a banner for the title of my blog. i would like to know how to post pictures too i read the instructions here but i just cant figure it out i hate computers and etc and instructions for these stuff i let for things to take their course but whatever. the weather is amazing and inshallah this weekend it rains because i love the rain i wish it was raining and i am on the beach sitting on the shore watching the collisions of the drops with the waves. oh well we all can wish cant we. whats ur wish?

omg still in the midst of creating my masterpiece of a project but i couldnt finish it yet, i have to post i duno i got this feeling that i must write something because if i stick with doing the project i will erupt with stress. hope you understand what i mean oh well almost done with this summary of emily dickinsons poem for english but i still got the artwork to create and that takes hours so i guess i need a dose of caffeine. but i dont drink coffee never tried it before. lol. how about a nice cup of hot chocolate that would probably make me sleep but ohh the taste of it.

i appreicate the comments i have gotten so far and i feel oh joyous and delighted that someone knows my blog exists. i also like how my sis put me up on her blog page but why’d she have to write dee’s blog(my sis) instead of using Your Battlefield. i guess now i have to censor off my rants and shall i say reduce my bad comments or blah about my sisters and how this and that and u know sisterly love and hate. lol. i hope u understand.

the chilly breeze was such a nice way of starting yet another dull and boring school week. oh well thank god we have a vacation next week 2 days or somethin like that so i can relax and lay back and enjoy life for now. but till then i have got a million tests and quizes this entire week. oh well the rose has got thorns to make you bleed and u must find a way to endure the pain. blah blah blah of what i say. i have a tendencay to compare and make metaphors for my words something not so good that i find in me. oh well the upside of my day is that the crabs i got from the beach for my project that i collected rested are resting in peace..lets just leave it at that. i am excited, i signed up for this oil painting workshop and im so esctatic i cant wait till it begins at least i will look forward to something each week at school.

till the next post i havent got a new song or anything im in love with yet and i hate how when i love a song i listen to it repeatdly and by the end of the day i am so feed up with it….we must always save room for simply having room rather than straining ourselves with all thats about. i want to point out to someone out there that with your suggestion i have decided to increase the size of the font but the previous post might not change the text size until this weekend when i am utterly free :F