been awhile since i posted so i began to write and had finished this blog for today and my pc mysteriously restarst damn it. i dont feel like rewriting my emotions that i had written just seconds ago. oh what the hell here goes.

too much to do but so little time. apparently it would be the opposite in the summer but now its this way, i have got a project thats due on sunday and i haven not yet begun anything but i tend to mashallah get amazingly creative and orginial within last minute before its due so ill just do it on saturday. inshallah ill finish and but i have to work like hell to do all thats needed and dont get me wrong it needs more than a day but i have a magical ability. lol. i have been busy doing not so important things like watching latest eposides of one tree hill, gilmore girls, charmed, lost, will and grace and the show im currently in love with the hott actor from prison break. 😛

today was such a beautiful breathtaking day u know why because i went to the beach and oh i love the beach for all of u out there. hint hint neeways i like had to go all over kuwait beaches to collect samples of water, sand, etc and take pictures. i love it and i love the seclusion in the morning its so breathtaking in the midst of morning. i wish i could simply lay on the sand and just stay their the enitre day simply admiring the ocean and its shore without a hint of troubles on my mind or this or that the troubles in this world. to those that dont get the picture that when someone is sitting on the shore wanting nothing more than to ponder and listen to the waves and wants no distrubance from your unforgettable attention and nonsense you deliver within your presence get the picture and you know who im talking about the person who knows the person who oops i guess you guys wont know maybe one of you will. but leave it and let be go on your path because your fogging up my senses with your presence

oh well i gues its been a while since i have been here and i was basically crammed with work up to my shoulders to make this quite censored lol. oh well dont get me wrong i am not a person who always uses these words but once in awhile everyones got to even the shy girl that you can describe as me. my opinion and you will have the same if you come across me somewhere. lol. which is most likely not.

ill let you wonder off in your own world but i suggest you listen to the song by She Wants Revenge called Tear You Apart. it is so just dazzling and maybe you will fall in love with it as i have. but the lyrics are a little censorish and not one thats appropriate to post as i think:P

i hate lunatic drivers who just dont know how to drive..their either going to kill you in a fast heartless death or agnoize you with all the pain and suffering. come on people on the road in kuwait, slow your speeed because someday inshallah you will understand what i mean to state. if i was to walk to a place i would not live to survive the walk with only a couple of minutes because some careless driver will run me over..thats a nice image to imagine lol. but get the point,wherever your going in a hurry will still be their, so why not take you time rather than kill yourself over something useless, life is too precious and you won’t realize that until your life is taken.

its been very long since i came her to write my thoughts, however, i havent missed it at all because i am tirely of not getting any comments. i guess i have to advertise my webstie on other blogs that are famous so someone can visit it or notice this blogs existance. everything else in my life is hamdallah going quite well. i am out of the phase that happened to me where i justed plugged out in my studies and was feeling utterly no motive to study this happened right after mid term finals. thank god their finally over and im back to my old self.

i hear a whisper
it tells me to cry
i hear a scream
saying i’ll watch your demise
i hear a heart beat
it stops in your presence
i feel your touch
it chills me to the bone
i feel your passion
it destroys me continously
i feel your love
but nothing to say
why am i the one
feeling this way
fine i admit that i love you
but rub it in my face again
ill never see your face nor will i
say…
–dandoona

not that great of a poem but just the emotions they like to take a soul of their own if you get what i mean. oh well you dont need to like it but till next blog.

its my birthday today and i am now seventeen i still find difficulty seeing that i look seventeen. i always get comments that my lil sis looks older than me i hate that… dont get me wrong in years to come i will enjoy that comment but a girl does want to look … and that comes with i duno…anyways i just want to say that i ….lost my train of thoughts.and i keep doing this…..

im sorry, oooh but the best thing is for me that my lil lil sis thats 4 now is the one who makes me so happy I LOVE HER TO DEATH she lol when we sang happy birthday to me she was like happy before to Dandoon and then she added her name Lulu…thats just adorable. i do believe she likes it be that everyday is her birthday cuz she likes to blow the candles and i love the scent they give after u blow them out… enough about nothing that matters but.

omg when life gives u something u always wished for and u get it to me i felt like i dont want it anymore after making a big deal about it before and now i get the scene to occur i hate it and dread the fact that i am now getting what i always wanted ….Life suprises u when u have given up hope for that but then out of the blue it s weird but inshallah it is a good thing in the future.

so i dont even believe my blog is published or posted so i dont know if anyone can even read it…i hope someone comments cuz im up for any opinions and comments. i really didnt know that we had hale in kuwait today mashallah thats wow…beautiful changeable weather..rain, hale, sun, shine… inshallah we have good weather till the end of may. lol..there;s nothing more to say then….
“What’S more to say, you had your way, isnt it my turn to say, that i hate, dread to see your face, come on, cheer up, you said it to me once, but then again i said i love and need to see your face, but look said, depressed and worried cuz that would never happen in a million years because you havent even noticed me… thiis and that has never happened and might never will, simply because im dillusional”

Little does one see when their looking inside of your bed of lies,
its depressing to know that the person you are
is far from how you appear in their eyes .
Have you no desire of considering the truth,
i can by far use it a weapon against you,
just smile from day to day and say something sweet to me,
because in the end it will always come back to me because i created you,
you are me we are one and no one knows the person they see
you are the one no one was supposed to see except me.
this is a poem i wrote if u consider it to be one. :9.

i dedicate it to that person who knows that their full of ….. and without a notice they continue in their ways, why can’t their facade be more than that. i want..for nothing at all.

another day at school but so different it is than any other day i had. like i talk to this person and it was quite a great conversation about after these school days where might we embark upon…what do we want to study and etc. i enjoyed the conversation and that person enlightened my perspective on what i want to do after high school which is inshallah go to college and go further to even attain bachleors etc, i am boring you guys aren’t i well so far their has been no comments so i’m guessing no one wants to read about me..:p it doesnt really matter to me whether i get a comment or dont it just relieves me of my thoughts of the day and i can simply type them out and its like a diary to me. but don’t get me wrong, i will never tell you my deepest darkest secrets. 🙂 cause that is beyond the stupidest thing to do.

today’s my little sisters birthday FEB 5 and she’s turning four. inshallah she makes her wishes and they come true. lol. Barney is a dinaosaur with our imagination, omg like she loves this cartoon or whatever its called and has everything on it from dvds, lunchbox, colors, magazines, games, etc. i get sick of seeing it at times but neeways, she loves tom & jerry well this cartoon i love too. you never get bored with it and it always leaves you in a trance whether you turned the channel intinally to watch the cartoon or simply came upon by a mistake. you will end up watching it and the rest of the world is ( i get off topic quite easily which is so sad). well, just want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, happy birthday to L#j@^n. ( i’m sorry but i like to keep names unknown you never know who comes across and then blah blah why did u do this & that).

sleep can do grand things for you like erase everything from this world for just a few hours where your dreams can come true. i often sleep with a dream in mind and thats why i love to sleep and am addicted to it. i close my eyes and imagine what i want to see and i dose off and when i awake, the dreams always leave me wanting more ( simply making me dread to wake up and want to continue on what my mind has created for me).

beautiful day, unrelating title to this page but from now on, all my titles might be that vague and unrelating. but always will i either close with a song i love, or a poem i wrote or anything…why not post a picture my blogg is looking to dull.:p. i never run out of things to say, i think that makes me uncharming lol, right this moment i have more to comment about but lets leave it at this. James Blunt:
“Do you see the truth through all their lies? Do you see the world through troubled eyes? And if you want to talk about it anymore, Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder, i’m a friend. I have seen birth i have seen death. Lived to see a lover’s final breath. Do you see my guilt? Should i feel fright? Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?..”

whats more to say, the world is going its separate way and im trying to pave a path for me. why cant saying your thoughts be easy. it has taken me quite awhile to simply start with this first sentence to say. damn its a hard thing to do when all thats about you is in its own …. can’t we all just get along.

i’ve noticed quite often when the news is on, all you find is problems, and chaos going around. why can’t they put something joyous and that dosent break our hearts. i thought we were supposed to spread the joy to people all we seem to be doing is making everyone turn againts each other for the most pathetic reasons you can ever think of. ooh wtf am i blabbing about now is there nothin worth the while to say.

Neeways, i just wanted to try this for once and hopefully get some comments that wont be distressful and rude. oh what the hell, we are all entitled to our points of views. there’s too much to say but little comes out while you contemplate what you want at this moment to express. and what i am right now is “CONFLICTED” with all these troubles and im only what going to be SEVENTEEN on Feb.8 not so far away huh.. oh well i guess i should stop for now and catch up with this tomorow if i get some time off from that and this. i’ll just leave you with some words forom a band i love, the veils:
“So little knowledge known to me so little colour left to see but black and white black and white a silhouette at seventeen if they can find what’s left for me for the fire burn in the fire.”