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Welcome To Your Dreams….;)

Jun
5
2006
Posted at: 2:08 pm
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you explain… say anthing you wish to say…
express..!..any words that come to mind….
i’m willing to hear whatever you want to say about this
beautiful eye 😉

anywhooo….am so happy congraulate me…i was awarded today the william blake award as my teacher titled it….from my english teacher that is ,the only award she gave out to any of her students from whole highschool..:P….she left me blushing and speechless when she spoke to the audience of what i’ve been this year….relating me to william blake and then ending her speech by saying i will search through barnes and nobles years to come and look to find your book….wallah she’s quite a woman, inspires and motivates me….i am totally honored ….she’s amazing and this is why i have grown to love english….well my parents are extremely happy and not only have i made them be that way my sister as well…such a beautiful monday baby got some awards to cheer me up………after the awards and etc my algebra teach comes up to me and say you know i should have made an award titled the most artistic in math….he says i would have recieved it though im struggling in his class with numbers my creativity pulls off…..:)…i feel like giving everyone a hug….such a beautiful day

downside i didnt get the cover design….they chose a camel and a desert thing…only cuz its colorful because mine was in black and white…..anywhoo i dont mind i just want my design back….cuz i put time and effort and creativity into it baby…i want to remember my hardwork….even if it went to nothing…

I Just Figured You Out….

Jun
3
2006
Posted at: 9:32 pm
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i need to settle this steam and strip my anger it just cant stay hidden and masked… i need these few lines to express my utmost devastating feeling…its ripping my insides and strangling me… i need your words i need your answers but more than all i need your desolation…

i seek acceptation not rejection, i breathe and strife once for my being then for your seeing… why wont you just leave my unsettled heart drift away… let me hear its beat for the last time in your dying love i can do that you know i’ve mastered the plan…its not something hard i’ll teach you someday…

your whispering words were all i could hear, but your moving lips i didnt understand what you meant me to hear….begotten why have you no faith in me, why do you misjudge my likes…i am who i set to be…your constraining thoughts, actions destory me endlessly…ill never let you bring me down!

your some kind of soul…dont want happiness for anyone but yourself…dont you find my objection written on your wall… its a finale between me and myself. ill never let your words those abusive sounds make me sob into the night… i thought you were a soul worth hungering towards…but begotten you’ve misunderstood my standing and i shall to yours…i say once again,

farewell and off to my dreams
your whimpering voices will die in me
forever and always i regret that to be
i simply want to replay the hours
so i can change my fate
please leave me come the morrow
i’ve grown tired and weary from your stand
let me be thats all i @#$%^&* need!
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its nothing if you dont understand… just used up words from my meaningless self….i’ve understood today the inevitable … everything is simply….(insert word)!!!…dont think this is something when it might be nothing…just is what projects from me to you…..!!!
-your battlefield to this day…no regrets as of yet-
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