My alternate plan.

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till then, goodbye.

honestly, thats all i can say what more can i explain.

end. finish. 5alas.

i love writing, i love english but i cant make words and project the last moments.

ending….rolling credits

This was our raw destruction , as our hearts refined. Yours skipped the soulful rhythmic beats, mine was normal – beating soundly. You leaned against me in anguish, as I lay there desperate, begging you ‘release me’. End it, end this. But you resumed confining and abusing my skin. You lashed, grazed and stained my now pale flesh. You claimed I evoked and yielded for this fate.

I slapped you, you say it was a caress to your cheek. I struggle now, you strangle (uneasy lust unleashing desire) me. Your make-believe love, a fragment I choose to halt. Now you stand back, eyes in blaze as your fingers assessed facts – I’m more bitter, you’re deprived and once again I left you unsatisfied.

Distraught, you end. A shame, I ended long before our hearts collided…

this is fiction, but for you, yes you, this is ‘your’ life story.

I will let all the lyrics of others speak my words. Do not enjoy.

” Well I looked my demons in the eye , Laid bare my chest said do your best destory me. See I’ve been to hell and back so many times, I must admit you kinda bore me. If you’d just be kind to me, Now I’d walk one mile on just broken glass To fall down at your feet. “

🙄

I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I’m hearin what you say but I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around, and say…

-One Republic ~ apologize

 

Today is the day everything is settled. It’s the day I can no longer gaze and find the scenery breathtaking and/or logically appleasing. It’s a damn shame but I guess there is some gain. Whatever is to come, I must becareful cause if all ends well lives will be in my hands. I’m not assured that I can take it if god forbids something happens in the clutches of my hand. There’s no rewind, playback or pause navigation I can acquire – to save me.

Life tries to steer you this way while you try your earnest to clutch the brakes – it’s useless. Dont fight the knowledge and gearing of physics. Enough with my bullshit, I will just end my post on this side of the cliff. I’m going to experience my first driving lesson. The plus side is there’s to be two steering wheels and sets of everything and what not, so if something does go wrong he’ll save me. aye?