Alf mrrh gelt’t’ley ebte3ed 3ani
Alf mrrh gelt’t’elek el’tahab galbi

Alf mrrh je’tek oo galbi me7’taj el 7aneen
Alf mrrh oo dam’3eti tenzil 3ala 5hade a’beek

A’beek te7es feeni
A’beek tet’thakar ma’thee
A’beek te7es 3an galbi
Abeek tadri

Tara ghe’reb el fargah
O adri enta
Enta tem’shi be’3ed

Mebte3ed 3ani

Meb’teli
Meb’teli galbi
Yen’zif mena j’roo7
Damey mithl damek

7ubi kan ak’thar min 7ubik
7ubi lik madri kayef awusef gus’2atni

Ma’gdar eni ma a7ebik

bs enta7a
ebta3adt

Alf mrrh

Ay kelma mink ma tef’rag
Mad’foun fil galb
Jare7i akbar min jar’7ek

Taraak de’fanet galbi fel taa’rab
O madri lo tadrii
Ely mad’foun bil tarab
Me7’taj se’neen me7’taj

wesh feek yale 7abetk fel 3omr
wesh feeni ya shams mebta3ed 3ani el gumar
amshi ..

went be3ed 3anha

o lama sheft el gumar tabkii

mu’thaa

el denya murrh
o galbik 5alee

5ala9 ma feek
5ala9 ma wedik as’ken galbik
5ala9 mebta3ed ba3eed
Alf mrrh geltelek tara denyeti ent kent shamsha
oo al’2an asba7t thel’maha

temshi darbik wallah tadri feni
eli kan fe galbik  .. madri wainey

denyetik ya galbi

ma 3edt tabeeni
galbi endafan

oo me7taaj seneen yeshfa men kelmat 7abeebi

I use to say I feel dead inside. But now I just feel tired. Your eyes couldn’t measure the heartburn. And my lips couldn’t taste your hurt. I tried so bad. I would’ve tried for a long time. But it doesn’t matter now. It’s a bad feeling when you break stained glass. It’s so familiar. All goes silent, but before silence, it was very loud. It was beautiful.

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Not to long ago, I was alright. Usually you wouldn’t expect so much to change overnight. But now the world is empty. Very empty. Everyone chose to walk away. And the lights are blinding my eyes. I remember having a heart. I remember the times, and now I’m emptied. Of almost everything ..

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So I use to say I feel dead inside. But now I don’t have feelings. And so I’m not justified to say. A part of me died.

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I miss me
I miss you
I miss the past
I miss what was
I miss the fragments
I miss our clauses
I miss everything about you
Your scent,
Your taste,
Your touch.

I never had enough.
I will never too.

It’s all silence now and you don’t give me words. You don’t want too. I have trouble breathing. It’s all way too hard. I always find myself on the ground now. The lights are too dim, and my heart isn’t giving. I’m not anymore who I wanted to be. I miss you. I’m mentally locked down. My smiles are too well rehearsed, and you make it hard to smile when you don’t want to sound a word.

Remember when I imagined it could be the same again.

I was wrong again.

I don’t want the same, I want to go on. Forbidden chances, you lived once – I can tell you I don’t imagine I’l live it again. I’m dying a thousand times lately, especially during the nighttime, when the moon is out again.

Would you ..

Sit next to me. Play with my hair. I want to feel the care again. On any side of the coin, I want to be tossed around. I want you to side. Chose a side. Would you stand beside me? And catch me? I trust you .. I’m going to fall on you  ..

It hurts a lot.

You have to catch me this time, no strings attached.

Everything is in the distance now. Thunderstorms happen twice a week. And the missing sensations, they come along everyday. It’s really beautiful pain. You don’t wish to take it away. Grow up stronger, pick the pieces of broken and realize – at least it happened.

The hard times will get worse, and I just want you to be around. With no strings attached, I’ll give you my heart unconditionally. You don’t need to give me anything. Just your presence.

I miss you, you don’t have to miss me. I just want to feel.

It will get better again.