Complete thoughts.
Posted at: 6:06 pm
Filed under : Uncategorized I feel horrible, I am turning into a person I never wanted to be. I am becoming cold. But do you blame me? Do you really? Would you not turn cold if you were not experiencing what I have been enduring?
Do you realize one thing that is shattering my glass into more intricate pieces. I picked the pieces up before. I have picked them up once and it was not long ago. And I very well assume and think I have enough strength to continue doing so. You get hurt and then you heal. Even if some of the pieces seep into my veins and hurt – I will heal. Even if your words no longer make me feel special. Even after I bathe in the hours silence, even after I realize that you were never anything – I will find some bright to this dark shade of grey. I will begin to feel again.
For now, I thank you for the horrible feeling. Thank you for making me feel no feeling.
I dont feel great, or wonderful. I am however lost and searching for something I do not know. And now that the weather is turning cold…. It is keeping cooling my insides even more. I was always sweet and pleasant and now I am just broken and distant. I write to erase a past. I write to mark a present. I write because I feel cold. I write because I was always unwritten.
Thank you for no words. Thank you for excessive hurt. Thank you for the hours of nothing more. Thank you so much. Without you, I would not have experienced and become a piece of broken glass.
I can hurt you too, you know.
joejoe said,
October 2, 2008 @ 10:53 pm
What do you miss and why do you miss it?
The blackness behind fertile lips?
The coherent openness from torn down egos?
Can you say thank you to life for the temporary bliss?
Do you fear you can not find that kind of love again?
[You will]
Your battlefield is one we all fight on.
For me, your suffering words comfort and confirm that…
We are all one
If you let your heart turn cold you’re only cheating yourself.
Love > Fear
Don’t forget to let the light in…
Abeer said,
October 3, 2008 @ 2:33 am
If you hurt someone in the past then this is what you get back due to the olden days punishment.. if not then this person who is making you lost and feeling bad will be in the same situation! and yes they deserve it! sorry if I went beyond the subject!
your battlefield said,
October 3, 2008 @ 6:07 pm
joejoe:
sometimes it is not what is missed and the whys.
sometimes we need to experience the act of missing because its a part of
an important physical aspect and human need.
yes bliss is never permanent, and im thankful for that.
yes i fear i did not find any love at all it was not the finding it again part.
sad and funny right?
i wont go dark, i love the bright and colorful tones – i wont let the darkness take over. thank you for your words – i love when a piece makes my readers ask and comment, i love comments.
abeer:
they deserve much worse, but sometimes you have no mean of making such a punishment occur….sometimes silence and indifference wound and kill more than creating more hurt. you didnt go beyond the subject, you very well touched on what i meant to mean.
rawr said,
October 3, 2008 @ 8:49 pm
beautiful. just like u.
wow
x
Sh7afana said,
October 4, 2008 @ 9:58 am
From all the things ive been enduring latley i have turned cold. a cold hearted bitch. or atleast thats what i show them. i have been described as impersonal and emotionally detached latley. so i see where your coming from.
your battlefield said,
October 5, 2008 @ 10:12 am
rawr:
no words.
thank you :*
sh7afana:
people should understand, we all are in a constant mode of changing or subject to change, its called growing up and wiser i hope, oo sometimes we need to turn cold to feel again,..but sometimes it is all wrong :)….and thats life
Sweet Anger said,
October 6, 2008 @ 12:54 am
That was wonderfully written…
your battlefield said,
October 6, 2008 @ 8:46 pm
sweet anger:
i’m absolutely smiling from your comment.
thank you…& welcome to my haven of nonsense
welcome to this blog 😛