The below I dedicate to myself….Your Battlefield 😉 when all else fails refer to the below and you can make it past all those obstacles just believe and you can achieve 😉

Emily Dickinson
Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul. And sings the tune without the words, and never stops at all.

Aristotle
Hope is a waking dream.

Barbara Kingsolver
Hope is a renewable option: If you run out of it at the end of the day, you get to start over in the morning.

Anne Lamott
Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don’t give up.

Geoffrey Gaberino
The real contest is always between what you’ve done and what you’re capable of doing. You measure yourself against yourself and nobody else.

Marcus Garvey
If you have no confidence in self, you are twice defeated in the race of life. With confidence, you have won even before you have started.

William J.H. Boetcker
Your success depends mainly upon what you think of yourself and whether you believe in yourself.

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on another note: i sense i will be getting sick or ill come the next few days i just dont feel like myself lately…..stomachache 🙁 i hate being sick……………..:o(

Dearest darling,

Today you’ve turned a year older, and i’ve become a day wiser understanding the inevitable truth. Forever and always were the words I pledged to you. But now their just overused pathetic words. I scorched so many pages in this notebook leaving just this page for you. The others were wasted drawing images inflicted by you, that defined your hate. I would dream for your repentance and the day that you might see me still. But i can never forgive those who have forgotten me and never knew me well.

I cried in the process of writing you this letter, of ending my decietful lie, that someday you might fall in love with me and at that time I can make you cry. These drying tear’s on this painful letter will be erased with time, but dont think they were never here because darling i’m crying crimson tears. Flooding this white paper with scars and fears….no longer able to settle all thats been and all thats gonna be…..END here END there, doesnt matter because their was never a start…so how define a postion when you’ve been their all along??….

This letter shall be sent to you the day people pay their respects to me, my body, my soul, my everything…it’s the day when i will no longer be…on this planet or that shadow facing you defenselessly. So without breaking my heart, without damaging my soul, the ending i began to a start unknown. Always and for all, never witnessed laughter or smiles for thou soul….goodbye forever and never more….i’m resting peacefully no longer worrying about this broken heart.

Her Soul,

The Battlefield

Well i just finished a chemistry test and it was hard, difficult not what i expected and with or without the studying i just oooof anywhoo away from depressing news to something special and thats gonna shine me with glitter and light…..yes you might have noticed my jackie posted a post on GINA….yes our Gina is coming home and well i missed her endlessly and we got lots to catch up on so with that my days will be fulled with smiles and laughter….they already are but she’ll add more to it….the above was just again meaningless words i wrote….because i dont feel like starting on the project due come the morrow or studying for the english test…:( anywhoo enjoy. smile. cheers. c ya later…and :* excuse the change in font size…something messed up happened and i cant bring it back to normal sorry

today oh today what can i say!!! i met the most kindest soul ever seriously….you would have never guessed someone would be that sweet…

well trackback i got out of school early 😉 yeah babes cause i had an appointment so my mummy picks me up from school we go finish the thingy in freakin 5 minutes….but it took about 45 minutes to reach….damn i could have done what the doctor did in 5 minutes by myself…so useless and waste of time…anywhooo we decided to get lunch for my baby sister who is currently feeling sick since she just got shots….oh yes a check up cause inshallah she’ll be heading out for school next year yeah…. i cant wait to walk her to kindergarten ohhhhh that will be the life me in my last year and my lovely sugar will be there :)….

back to the story so my mummy gives me the cash and i go order from the resturant, and all this time i’m in my school uniform ok…well i get in and literally all i see are guys all waiting, me the only gal there….got scary but not the point…so i stand in line like most decent people would have done…and this guy in uniform, police or something in the navy all of a sudden talks to me…i’m like in my brain mumbling “wtf do you want seriously, did i say i want to talk….i thought he was the rude kind but think again…” so he tells me “oh come on, you get in front of me ishd3wah, its ok….(why i dont know maybe because i was young or watever and he felt i duno…) well at that moment i was like “no no its ok no wallah i dont mind standing”…but no he doesnt take no for an answer so i freakin go ahead order and wait…and then everything goes ackward i tell him mashkoor and well thank you…my order is called out, go grab the food and then depart with a smile on my face….that’s when i realized how we still have kind, decent men in our country :)…brightening up the day…then again i guess i over went with it, its just a kind gesture right?:P

now why i wrote a post about it i have no idea…. 😛

i shall say adios for awhile, have to study for my chemistry test, and no purgatory its not always a chemistry test, algebra too, history, english, etc you name it i got it…inshallah all goes well, so how was your day compared to mine, adventrous i know 😉 …

listening to Nawal’s latest album, love it…. 😉 and i found a song thats got me on replay “Fi Elbidaya…, when i finish her enter cd ill see what else 🙂 anywhoo enjoy the day and sweet dreams !

I have just noticed that my blog has actually been a diary…..thats kept track of my being….dont try to spend the time to comprehend what i speak because this is just my ideal non being, all i am is what i want to be…..blind with words, harm seeks the truth and doodled breathlessly….

lastest doodle, created while listening to what? goo goo dolls…..ofcourse those are lyrics…not my own words……my handwriting needs to change…its fugly… so what else is new with me?

yesterday, i thought some sleep will end my tiresome week beautifully…well the first 4 hours of sleep did but why oh why did i continue and not stay awake….so i slept from 7 pm to well today i woke up at 9 am…..so about 13 freakin hours of sleep….i hated every extra minute of it….every extra minute….i wasted all those minutes drifting from dream to dreams…..niether of them brigthening my mood nor creating something worth the while…..anyways my nonsense let it not confuse you….i shall end my nightmare right here in between my words…

and last i leave you to chase the answers to your unknown questions….breathless and waiting——>my nonsense will wear off come 5 more days inshallah till then entertain me~!

nothing more for know…..will think of something later

-Your Battlefield-

P.S: i never use note cards for taking notes…..hmmm i wasted packs on doodles, what can i do?or say to that matter only that i never like to follow instructions…!!!!

i use post its but not for the reason most of you use them for….i doodle all over them hehehe….lets just say i have wasted many packs of those 😛 this is a doodle post it in my daily planner yes i keep one but i sadly havent written in it since december…damn the winter vacation changed me hehehe 😛 should i post more of them …. fine if you say so ;p hehe excuse me if they are horizontal or etc thats the way they were in the planner and i didnt feel like rotating them to make them look straight sorry 😛 i would have pasted the whole page but blogger hates loading that big of files 😛

hmmm i have to write a research paper 8 pages long on someduoopeedo… 😉 and i need a way to stay awake, alert and breathing through the process any ideas….. please nothing illegal hehehe :OP and i have to turn it in exactly hmmm 24 hours no less… ;P
away from me and to my ever so charming commentors….i love you guys…you all make me smile, feel cheerful and your presence on my blog brightens up my day….thank you ;*

Now for my new questions, they arent that good as the first bunch but bare with me…heheh till something more streams through my mind i will ask….but answer these with your true heart :P!

Would you reject the one who cares for you but you not for them and try to pursue those far from your grasp who know nothing of your existence…..?

please scoot over am tired and weary and need to rest the soles of my shoes….am battered and torn apart by this feeling……ooooof it wasnt supposed to go that way….?!! i guess all is what was meant to be!!

so was your day more tiring or was mine? i’ll save you a seat beside that man?

i sat in a chair from 7:30 till 12:40 taking a test we shall rest its name…..damn my gluteus maximus was soar and sleeping heheheheh and i have a terrible headache and writers cramp…!! i forgot how to write my own name…..thats how stressed i was….and who cursive what nooo your arent seriously oh damn…. however after it i was anxious to purchase the book called girl with pearl earrings which was inspired by the painting by johannes vermeer….apparently theirs a movie also i guess i will eventually ask jackie to download what would i do without her :o)….

well i am done my count down and begun a new one….lets see how many more days till my ……. is back home with me hmmmmm 9 more days….inshallah all goes well….am missing …… so much ! XOXOX

im on a new page in my life…come what may i will be prepared and with a smile no matter what obstacle life decides to challenge against me….inshallah with time my words will be clear but till then do not worry if you dont understand what im blabbing about…..cause i dont either hehehe :op

am so happy i had so many responses to my stupid questions glad people took the time in their day to answer……and my replies were hehehehe….. i sounded like a pscyhologist analyzing her patients lives….it was so much fun am going to come up with some more eventually and post them……

oh yea and apparently you know the contest thingy well if no one else submits a thing for the cover then im the winner…..i feel so sad about that….am the only one so its not even a victory for me…..no one is competing against me i guess im invincble and no one wants to challenge me….come on i hate easy battles won without a fight….i guess i should be happy but am not….!!!

cheer me up!!